Take Care, Sara
by Lindy Zart
You breathe in, you breathe out, and everything you know is gone.
Sara Walker knows firsthand what it feels like to have your reality ripped away, scrambled, and shoved back at you in an undone puzzle where pieces are missing and nothing fits. She’s lost so much and is struggling to live and to find the strength to forgive herself for being human. With the help of Lincoln, her husband’s brother, Sara realizes it’s not about finding who she used to be, but about finding who she is now.
You breathe in, you breathe out, and everything you know isn’t gone, but reborn.
Oh my lord this book was so freaking sad! It was so dark and gut wrenching. I need a few happy books now, no more sadness. I would not recommend this for those of you who don’t like sad books. It was somewhat akin to watching Steel Magnolias, in reverse. All of the sadness hits you right from the get go. Then slowly eases into a dull ache and ending with a life worth living.
Sara Walker is existing. She is a shell of her former self. There are good days and bad days. On the good days, she gets up and showers, she cleans and she eats. Then she goes back to sleep. On the bad days she hears her husband talking to her and she wants to die.
Cole is a pivotal character in this book, yet he is only there is Sara’s mind. Cole is the love of Sara’s life. Her reason for living. When she looses him, she find’s herself unable to cope. Breathing becomes difficult and months go by without improvement.
Lincoln is Cole’s brother. Lincoln is hurting too. But Lincoln is there for Sara time and again. He refuses to let her slip into the dark abyss that threatens to consume her. He calls her, he pulls her out of her darkness time and time again.
Sara is haunted by memories that won’t let her go. She can’t escape in the house that they made a home. She has closed off the doors to their former life together and has enshrined the memories. They are all too painful to confront.
When the life you know, the reason for living is gone, what is left? Is this life worth it? Guilt consumes her and she spends her time wracked with sadness.
Sara believes she is alone, but Lincoln refuses to allow it. He forces her out of the house even when the pain is too great.
Eventually, Lincoln begins to unravel his feelings for Sara and they are not what she was expecting. He has been holding her together all this time. Sara begins to realize that she is not the only one who has lost and she is not the only one hurting.
“You hold on tight from now on, so tight it hurts. Got it? Don’t let go of me, not ever. Don’t worry about hurting me, don’t worry about suffocating me, don’t worry about holding on too tight. You hold on and you never let go. You’ll only hurt me, I’ll only suffocate, if you let go. Promise.” Silver flames sparked in his eyes and Lincoln’s jaw was clenched as he stared her down.- Lincoln
Lincoln is ever present and ever patient. Waiting, watching, giving his support. He is never far from Sara. Even when he is not there, he is on her mind.
“Lincoln was like a rock, standing tall in the wake of a tsunami, unbending and unbreakable.”
The relationship between Sara and Lincoln begins to shift and it scares the hell out of her. She can’t live without him and she knows it. She has to figure out how to breathe on her own. How to go from surviving to living again. She can’t let herself get in over her head. She has to stand on her own two feet and learn to walk on her own again.
This book freaking wrecked me. Oh my lord! This is like a large cup of depression rolled up in self loathing and grief. Wow. It was so well written and so well executed that I felt it all. Every tortured sob, every gut wrenching emotion was in technicolor for me to experience. Sara was such a tortured soul. She had no hope, no reason to live. Lincoln was a man on a mission. He was going to save Sara. He stood by her through so much. He never left her no matter how much she pushed him away. He knew her better than she knew herself.
I loved this book and I hated this book. It was sooooo sad and it was incredibly intense. I had no idea going in what was going to happen and there were many surprises. It was hard to imagine one person having to endure so much heartache. This one will stick with me for a while. I hope I didn’t scare anyone off. While this book is incredibly sad, it gets better. There is a proverbial light at the end of this tunnel. Bravo Lindy! You are one hell of a writer!
5 Rip Your Heart Out Stars!