This is what happened
I met him at the candy store.
He turned and smiled at me and I was surprised enough to smile back. This was not a children’s candy store, mind you. This was the kind of place you went to buy expensive imported chocolate truffles for your boss’s wife because you felt guilty for having sex with him when you were both at a conference in Milwaukee.
Hypothetically speaking, of course.
I’ve been hit on plenty of times, mostly by men with little finesse who thought what was between their legs made up for what they lacked between their ears.
Sometimes I went home with them anyway, just because it felt good to want and be wanted, even if it was mostly fake.
The problem with wanting is that it’s like pouring water into a vase full of stones. It fills you up before you know it, leaving no room for anything else. I don’t apologize for who I am or what I’ve done in or out of bed.
I have my job, my house and my life, and for a long time I haven’t wanted anything else.
Until Dan. Until now.
Sammy Loves Books’ Review
5 “Emotionally Dirty” Stars
I wasn’t prepared for how emotionally deep this book was. Elle is a beautiful, very intelligent VP for an accounting firm. Elle knows she is beautiful so to offset unwanted advances from men, she dresses very conservatively.
The mystery of her past relationships are revealed slowly as the story progresses. This story is told in first person from Elle’s point of view and it needed to be because Elle has a lot of issues. She has erected a tough exterior shell to help protect her fragile interior.
Ella wants sex on her terms because she has an issue with feeling dirty. Though she is has no problem with having sex with strangers, she has a major problem with emotional attachments.
She meets Dan at the candy store and things begin to change. There is an instant attraction between Dan and Elle that neither of them can deny or explain. Dan often says to Elle,
“What are you, Elle? Are you a ghost? Are you an angel or a demon? Because you can’t be real.”
The problem lies in that the pain that Elle struggles with is all too real. Dan proves time and time again that he has the patience to deal with a woman that won’t allow him to kiss her on the lips. Neither pair of lips, if you get my meaning. Dan stole my heart as Elle continued to break it.
I usually don’t like my smut mixed with deep emotionally distressing subjects. I don’t wanna be sexually stimulated and crying five minutes later. That being said, I loved this story of growth and acceptance because that’s what this book was truly about. Yes, there was a lot of hot sex, but that was just the outer crust. The interior however, was full of betrayal, pain, and yearning. A woman yearning to be normal, hoping to feel clean, and learning to be able to love.